Thursday, September 29

After the chaos

Well, hello all!

It's been a couple weeks since I've last caught up here and I can already tell you that this is going to be long one! Stick with me, friends :)

In my last post, I got to tell you about a dear friend of mine that saw Jesus for the first time. I am STILL in awe of this and I still get chills just thinking about the work that the Lord is doing!

My first big announcement is that after 5 years of work with Rising Above Ministries, I am resigning from my position. After months and months of prayer God finally gave me and Ben the confirmation we needed to resign. I adore this ministry and have loved every minute I get to spend with the leaders and families that have children with special needs. It has been a long road that has blessed me so much, but it is time for Ben and I to live our story. (As sweet Becky, one of the directors, said to me)

I will now be spending more time volunteering with Banebow. I am so thrilled to be able to give time to a ministry that changed our lives. I don't mean altered or influenced... I mean changed. When the hard days happen, they understand like no one else can. I am so thankful for the friendship we have been blessed with through Banebow and we are excited to serve alongside them. It's time for us to live our story of infant loss with other families who are going through this.

And let me put a disclaimer out there... This will not be easy. But the work of the Lord is rarely easy. The key factor is that Jesus was not a victim, He was a volunteer.

Two weeks ago I got to go and speak for a women's conference. It was my first time speaking without Ben and I was terrified. But of course, God totally followed through and gave me words to say. I was so blessed by these amazing women. Plus, we got to go to the lake!! The conference was held in a building right on the lake with a beautiful view and a pool! Not a hard day at all :)

Last week Ben and I went on our honeymoon/babymoon to Charleston, SC. It was our very first trip alone together! We never went on a honeymoon so we finally got some money together to get out of town for a few days. We had the best time getting to know Charleston. We slept a ton, ate wonderful food, walked miles upon miles, got massages, and simply did nothing. It was bliss :)

I'm so grateful that we got to get away and spend some much needed R&R time with each other!

Have I mentioned that baby #2 has finally made its debut? Our life has been so crazy lately that sometimes I forget I'm pregnant. I'm trying to dedicate more time to reading and preparing for this baby. I feel like it's speeding by and super slow all at the same time. I think I would answer differently depending on the day.

With Aiden's one year birthday & death day approaching, we are trying to figure out how to spend those days. It's so hard because it's not like we've had to do this before and we really don't know what we want or need.

One thing we are doing is throwing a benefit concert in celebration of Aiden's life and all the proceeds are being donated to Banebow! We have some amazing musicians that are donating their time and talent to this event and we are so excited to celebrate! So spread the word that this concert will not only be awesome but it's for a great cause!

Thursday, September 8

It's here!


This is my favorite time of the year. Coffee, hot cider, homemade chicken noodle soup, candles, leaves, festivals, cool weather, disc golf, apple pie, and lots of other yummy food...

And today is one of those really really good days. The kind of day that makes me want to jump up and down and tell everyone in my life how much I love them. The kind of day that I am so thankful for my family and for my husband and for this baby and for our time with Aiden and for such great friends that provide such an amazing support system.

It's the kind of day that reminds me of how good God is that I just want to cry. I want to cry in pain, in joy, in love, in kindness, and in complete awe of my God!

I met a woman who also lost a child about a month ago. When I met her, God wasn't the first thing on her radar. She was so hurt and in pain and lost. (I was feeling the same way when I lost Aiden) But even through the hardship, I knew God was faithful. I knew He was looking out for me. I knew He loved me and cared for me and wanted to heal me.

My dear friend did not know these things.

We had such wonderful conversations where we could cry together, talk things out, and just spill everything on our minds.

Today I met her for breakfast and she is different. She's reading the Bible. She is talking about God. She knows that He loves her. She knows that God is drawing her.

Today she recognized God in her life for the first time!!!!

So many tears of joy streamed down my face as I left the restaurant just soaking up God's GREAT goodness! The miracle that God draws us and that we don't have a choice in it. All we have to do is respond to His calling.

Today my friend said she wants to respond. She wants to seek out God and His mystery. Oh what amazing love washed over me as I heard these sweet words from her today.

Today is a great, great day. It is the day that the Lord has made. And man is it good! :)